Sunday, January 14, 2007

A Year in Review

It is 10:57 pm and I am upstairs working on a Sunday. Sven is in bed. A year ago, this would have been a similar situation except I would be on a plane to Phoenix in the morning. I am sitting here, hating my job, explaining to myself how it is because I am learning so much that it is really worthwhile. My, my, how things change in a year.

In the past year, Sven and I got married and I took on a new job. The job is in some ways more difficult, which is part of the reason I wanted to take it. The bigger part is that I wanted to be home indefinitely. So, here I am.

When I first started working back in Austin, it was a total mind-fuck. Every day, all I could think was, "Today, I am going to leave work and go home and be at home. Today, I am going to leave work and go home and be at home. Today, I am going to leave work and go home and be home." It was like this weird concept I couldn't quite grasp. I think this is how prisoners must feel when they are released, like - really? I can go to a gas station? All by myself? And that's okay? Or maybe like when you turn 21 and you're allowed to drink in bars. It's something that was never allowed and suddenly, one day later it is okay.

Being home took a couple of weeks to accept, and I was very very thankful at first. Everyday before work I would kiss Sven like it was the last time I would ever see him and thank God I was home. Now in the morning, I yell up the stairs at him, "Hey I'm leaving. See you tonight." I guess it just goes to show how quickly you start taking things for granted.

So, I guess I will get back to that report now. But, maybe I will kiss Sven before I leave for work in the morning.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Moving Home

Can you believe it? I may actually get to live at home. I just got official word there is a role for me in Austin. Still things to confirm, but it's starting to look realistic. Either way, I'm outta here on Wednesday. Which means that I am madly transitioning everything to someone else. I need to care, but it's hard. I have easily 2000 more emails to go organize and archive. Only 80's music will get me through the night.

Other updates... have not kept any of my new year's resolutions. In a freakonomics case study, I have managed to keep Nancy's resolution: No internet at work. I still email Sven occasionally, but to respect Nancy's goal, I've stopped emailing her. Somehow this has reduced my drive to accomplish personal tasks at work. Weird. Nance, could you resolve to eat veggies at least once a day?

I also read Memoirs of a Geisha this weekend. It takes a couple of chapters to get into, but I highly recommend it.

And I bought really pretty stationary.

That pretty much sums it up. Aren't you glad you checked up on me?

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Sexy people

Okay, so I watched one of those "101 sexiest celebrity bodies" shows. It was by accident and they had already made it to the top 10, so of course I watched the rest. It's the second one I've seen and for the second time Beyonce and Angelina made the top 5.

....you know, I just don't get it. I won't argue that Beyonce has a very pretty face, but just how does someone with cellulite on the front of their legs get a sexiest body award? Denise Richards is fucking hot even though she just had a baby and she didn't even make the top five. It doesn't seem fair. Ninety percent of the population is trying to lose weight and Beyonce just waltzes in with her big butt and wins an award. There's a lot of people with big butts - what makes hers so special??? And where does she even buy jeans??? My ass is not small, but it is proportional to the rest of my body and I can't find pants. Ughhh. Stupid media baby. Media wants us all to be a size 2 but they throw in a fat girl so they can seem open minded while still pressuring us to look like Denise.

Likewise, Angelina Jolie made the top five on both shows too. She was actually number 1 in this one. (I think Beyonce was number in the last one.) This pisses me off partly because I still hate her for taking Brad. But, I also hate that these contests are so blatantly political. If I'm gonna watch this crap, they should at least be fair-minded about their decisions. Like Beyonce, Angelina also has a very pretty face and is really quite gorgeous. But, her body? She's got big boobs, but that's it. She's downright bony these days. I'm convinced she only made the list because she's Miss Social Rights all of a sudden. Have people already forgotten that she used to wear a vile of blood around her neck and that she made out with her biological brother at an award ceremony AND that she stole somebody's husband????

Let's just be honest. If you had a line-up of Beyonce, Angelina, and Denise, and all you could see was the neck down, who would you pick? DENISE!! And she didn't even make the top five. And where the hell was Rachel McAdams in this list??? To get a sexy body award, you should actually have a sexy body.

Anyway, I've already contemplated this for too long. But, I bet your happy I chose this topic over the janitor story.

Monday, January 09, 2006

New Year's Resolutions

I usually don't bother with New Year's Resolutions. I always resolve the same thing: Lose 25 pounds. Its more like a New Year's Wish though. In all these years, I've never actually done it. But, this year I am motivated. I realized there are things I really want to change about myself. So, here they are for the world to see. My 2006 year's resolutions:

1.) Lose 15 pounds. (Losing weight will always be on the list no matter how unlikely it is.)

2.) Arrive at least 10 minutes early to everything. People who know me will appreciate this. In fact, I secretly suspect that this was on other people's new year's wish list. I'm always trying to squeeze that last tiny task in before I go somewhere - doing the dishes, mailing a letter, paying a bill, whatever. I always procrastinate in some way. I'm not sure why. Its just something I do. And I inevitably feel very guilty and slovenly, especially when I make important friends wait. But, I'm going to change. I'm not sure how, but it will happen. If you have any suggestions for making yourself be on time, let me know.

3.) Eat at least one vegetable serving a day. Sadly, this will actually be an improvement.

4.) Dress better. This sort of goes with the "be early" one. I always end up dressing crappy for stuff because I wait until the last minute to get ready. Then I start piddling around reading blogs or some crap and then I have to rush to finish. I've also given myself all sorts of allowances for living in two different states. I don't make myself go shopping for clothes and have even convinced myself that I'm saving money for the house. Of course its bullcrap because I buy shoes at whim and never actually wear them. Anyway, I realized I've become a slob. This one I've decided not to start until Resolution 1 is complete or April, whichever comes first.

So, that's my sad, pathetic little list. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

You know me, I'm the eternal Optimist

I am getting so ticked with people spamming my comment section. Who does that? Why are people so uncool? And why can't spam or junk mail have anything good in it? Just once I'd like to check the mail and get my FREE GIFT!!! trial sample of opium.

And with that, you probably already know how my day was. That's right. It was shitty. The way Monday thru Thursday always is. But, the glass is half-full so how about I share something optimistic. Here is the best thing that happened to me this weekend:

I was incredibly sick all weekend - dizzy, congested, unable to hear, fever, cough. On sunday, I was finally feeling up to a movie so Sven and I went on a double-date with Donny and his sick girlfriend to see Harry Potter. After the movie, I went to the bathroom where my appearance confirmed my sickness. As I washed my hands, I could not help but notice these 13-year-olds primping in front of the mirror with their lowcut jeans revealing washboard tummies. To my annoyance, I became even more aware of my already obvious revolting condition. But, as we exited the bathroom, it was clear that only one of us was being waited on by an incredibly good-looking man. ME!!! That's right - me. The ancient woman wearing a sweatshirt with no make-up on, hacking her lungs up.

I shouldn't have felt smug, but I did.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Big Week

This is a big week for me. Things so big have happened that I really can't fathom how big they are. In my head, they are happening to someone else and I'm just sort of watching.

The Event of the DECADE: My niece Braelyn Marie was born this weekend. She is adorable. I'm serious - She is so so beautiful, I can't even believe it. I'm trying not to be the insane aunt here, so I didn't take that many pictures. But, I did take some and will post them soon. I love her. She is absolutely perfect.

The Event of the YEAR: Sven and I close on the house this friday!! We move in next Wednesday!! I've been consumed with fixing the condo so it will sell and haven't even begun to think about living in the house. When we put in an offer on the house, I spent a lot of time daydreaming about Sven and I living there, but the timeframe was 5 years from now, not next week. So, I'm overwhelmed with things to do. My favorite part is going to be putting up the Christmas tree since we move in on Thanksgiving. My mom is going to make personalized stockings for Sven and me. I can't wait.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Back to Life

It's been at least 6 months since my last post. I stopped posting for a long time because I was in a bad mood - mainly for one reason that I can't talk about on the blog. So, rather than rant endlessly about people that piss me off but do not read my entries, but cannot be called out in the open and have everyone worry they were the anonymous person even though they were not and could never be, I stopped writing. Trust me - I did you all a favor (except for Sven who will probably need counseling).

But, I'm back now :) Here's a recap of what has happened:

1.) Sven and I got engaged (yay!!! a most unexpected and welcome surprise)
2.) Sven and I are buying a house (yay again!!! another unexpected and welcome surprise)
3.) My niece is almost here (HOORAY!!! I can't believe she's almost here!)

Pictures and details to come...